Sometimes there’s really nothing you can say or do. Silence is the worst, but sometimes it says it all. It’s the only way to quiet the noise in your head. Sometimes silence is the only way to figure out what’s going on inside you. When you’re going through something no one understands, when your heart is breaking over a relationship you were never in, when you want to give up but you have a life waiting for you to make things happen, when nothing makes you feel good but you have to be grateful for it all. You don’t want to talk about them because you want to protect them from what people might say, you don’t want anyone to tell you that you should forget about it or it’s not worth your time.
You say nothing when someone mentions their name, you say nothing when someone talks about their love life. So you watch them in silence, you miss them in silence, you think about them silently and you pretend like you don’t want them. Loving someone so much but you can’t say anything because you don’t want to lose them, you don’t want to push them away, you don’t want things to be awkward if they don’t feel the same way. Sometimes silence is better than knowing that there is no chance. Silence is tough but sometimes the truth is tougher. Sometimes silence is the only answer to someone who is unaware of the pain they caused you, it’s the only answer to someone who doesn’t care to know if you’re okay.
Not knowing what to say, not knowing if it will make a difference, not knowing if it will make matters worse. Silence is ignorance and sometimes ignorance is bliss. Silence sometimes saves you from further rejection or hearing things you don’t want to hear. Silence is better than sounding crazy, weak or irrational. It’s painful to talk about what hurts, it’s painful to tell someone that they broke your heart and it’s painful to show someone how vulnerable you are and how much they mean to you when you’re not sure what kind of reaction you’ll get and when you’re not sure what you really mean to them.